AnxiousQuivers of acute angle-bracket arrowsAnxious by Celtic-Lily
torn from lives and shot
to nestle deep in the candyfloss tangle heart.
A pincer movement,
pinch and pull and stab
the twisted black dot that holds the centre in its thrall,
lending wooden support struts
to point and guard and strengthen its impenetrable knots,
twisting always tighter tighter twisting-
until kamikaze pressure punctures
its body's own soul
into glass shards of tension on their tips.
Edited: Sally and Brynn- MirrorSally knelt in front of the mirror, inspecting the frame with a baffled frown.Edited: Sally and Brynn- Mirror by Celtic-Lily
“A mirror? This is what all those warnings were about? What’s so dangerous about a mirror?” She sounded almost indignant. Brynn stood a little way back, watching. Her eyes were narrowed in thought, her brow creased with a frown to echo Sally’s. Her fingers tapped absent-mindedly against her gun. There was something about this she didn’t like, but she couldn’t quite put her finger on what it was. She fixed her eyes on the mirror pane itself, on the reflection copying Sally’s movements.
Brynn’s eyes narrowed further. Had… had the reflection just moved its hand slightly slower than its living counterpart?
With a stab of unease, Brynn ran forwards and pulled Sally to the side, sending the inventor sprawling. Ignoring Sally’s bewildered protests, Brynn faced the mirror, gun in hand. Her reflection did the same.
Just as it should.
Quest for a Front DoorInspired by a conversation with my brother about someone with a house so big it had its own bowling alley and cinema complex. The conversation went something like:Quest for a Front Door by Celtic-Lily
"But those are things you go out to do, as a treat with friends!"
"But, think about it, a house that size you could invite, like, five hundred friends over, and- and-"
"-And they'd never even have to meet each other..."
It's been seven days since the host left me alone, and I’ve decided to keep a diary to track my progress- or lack thereof. I haven’t seen another living person for three days, and food supplies are running low. Luckily the plentiful bathrooms have meant I have not suffered water shortages so far, however they now seem to be dwindling in frequency as I head in what I desperately hope to be the direction of the front door. I can only pray that they don’t peter out completely.
Judging by the faint smell of pizza from the north-east, I’d say that the kitchen is only
1- Of all the strange and adorable and fascinating animals in the world, my favourite is still the rabbit. Although it’s a close call between them, momongas and mudskippers.
2- I got stuck on top of a Mayan temple in the rainforest once. The rope snapped when someone else was climbing down and the guide had to climb up and rescue the rest of us. It was like being in some sort of adventure book/film. We also visited the Mayan underworld…
3- I became obsessed with the Large Hadron Collider in about Year 9 and briefly wanted to study physics until I realised how much maths was involved and quickly changed my mind back to ecology. But I still know the Large Hadron Collider Rap off by heart…
4- I love having a weird name and I’ll never get bored of the looks of terror on peoples’ faces when I introduce myself to them and they panic about having to remember how to pronounce it, even though it’s only two syllables. Looking at the many inventive attempts to spell it in the greetings cards I receive is also entertaining. (And no, my name isn’t actually Lily, I just like the flower )
5- I find it difficult to think of even three things to say about myself, let alone 10.
6- I invented chocolate cous-cous cake. It is a peculiar substance which, according to my flatmates when they tried it, may be an entirely new form of matter. It’s nice though, honestly!
7- I once bribed the toothfairy to visit using a rainbow face-sticker (remember face-stickers?!) because she hadn't collected my tooth for several days.
8- One of the things I’m proudest of was when I was a paired reader at secondary school and I convinced a year seven who struggled with and hated reading that he actually liked it after all. He’d previously said that he hated reading and it was boring and stupid and the other paired reader just let him play computer games instead. I asked what he WAS interested in, if he didn’t like any of the books available, so we ended up reading a website about car engines and at the end of the session he told me that he’d actually enjoyed it more than playing computer games and could we read more of it next week?
9- I enjoy balancing chemical equations. It’s kind of relaxing. It’s the thing I miss most about studying chemistry at school/ AS.
10- Most spiders are horrible and scary, but tarantulas are adorable and fluffy like mutant eight-legged hamsters.
Answers to 10 questions
1. What inspired you to become an artist?
“Become an artist” …I’m not one. I’m a scientist who dabbles But I don’t really know. I’ve loved writing and drawing and making things for as long as I can remember. I guess I’ve just always been very imaginative.
2. Why have you chosen the art you have chosen?
Well… I haven’t really chosen any particular art form. If I have access to the equipment I need, then I will try it. I like writing poetry because I can make better sense of my own thoughts and feelings when I’ve condensed them into solid words, even when the poetry itself would seem to anyone else to be completely unrelated to what inspired it, and I love to see how other people interpret it. It’s fascinating to see how the same words can mean such different things to different people, and often I find others point out things- symbolism, word play, meanings- that I hadn’t even noticed myself, which help me to gain a greater understanding both of what I’ve written and of myself. Poetry, I think, is something that needs to be shared in order to ever become complete. It’s unique in its ability to share feelings, change feelings, explore thoughts, make people think, expose controversies and start discussion. I like writing prose too because it gives me something more concrete to focus my imaginings around, which allows me to explore them more solidly than when they’re just floating around as general concepts and ideas in my head. Words are beautiful and powerful, and to be able to wield them is both exciting and inspiring in itself.
Drawing I enjoy I guess as a form of meditation? It’s relaxing. Occasionally I really want to try challenging myself, but for the most part I just like doodling. I also like being able to give my characters a solid form so I can see them more clearly. Or at least, attempting to. They rarely turn out like they’re supposed to XD
And I like crafts because I’ve always found it exciting to be able to create my own things. I’m quite good at picking new crafts and techniques up, and I enjoy making pretty things, and presents for people.
3. What is your greatest interest in life? Is it your major, if you are a student?
It probably is my major, I guess. I study environmental biology. I’ve been fascinated by the environment since before I could talk, apparently. By the age of about three I’d decided that humans were destroying the environment, that I wanted to save it, and that the only way to save it was to learn as much about it as possible. I love nature, I love being out on mountains, in forests, places I can feel entirely surrounded by it. Unfortunately I don’t get to do that very often.
It’s by no means my only interest though. If you want to tell me something, chances are I want to learn it! Science, history, folklore, philosophy, religion, culture… everything except pop culture and sport, pretty much And even those, I’ll listen and learn anyway despite having no interest in them.
4. What are your other hobbies, other than art?
Singing! I love singing, particularly folk music and in choirs. I also kind of play violin (badly!) and I’ve taught myself keyboard/piano. I’ve recently joined a living history society called Historia Normannis, so I spend about 8 hours a week now being killed by Norman/ Anglo-Saxon weapons. SO MUCH FUN. We do crafts too, so I’ve been learning to make Anglo-Saxon clothes and leatherwork. But I guess that’s back to art…
I sometimes play tabletop rp campaigns… but even though they’re great fun I find them quite difficult to join/ get into.
I used to do aikido, but I’ve mostly had to give it up since starting uni unfortunately.
5. What are your religious or spiritual views, if any?
Ummmm……… Complicated and changeable. Agnostic, I guess? Or perhaps theologically bewildered? XD I was brought up semi-Christian (believing in the Christian God and Jesus, but never really going to church), and I used to believe whole-heartedly as a child but now I don’t know. I want to believe (*cue X-Files theme*)… but I can’t quite. I still pray sometimes, cos I find it helpful. Something I really struggle with in Christianity is the concept that anyone who doesn’t believe in the Christian God will go to hell. What kind of omni-benevolent, omnipotent creator would say “Hm, yes, you’ve been mostly a good person all your life, that’s all fine… oh, but I see you’re muslim/hindu/Buddhist/atheist/etc, because I caused you to be born into a family that brought you up to believe that religion/lack of instead, or because your experience told you it was more logical. Sorry. Nope. You were wrong AND NOW YOU MUST SUFFER.” It doesn’t make any sense!! I think perhaps, if there is a god, that all religions are true in some way. Because God is an entirely unknowable concept, something beyond human understanding, and perhaps all religions are just the same thing viewed from a different perspective. Attempts to put God into terms humans can understand, which necessarily become twisted by human emotions, thoughts, experiences, ambitions because we’re incapable of understanding anything except through our own subjective lenses. And as such, missionary work and trying to force people to believe the same thing, taking away peoples’ cultures and traditional beliefs… it’s pointless and immoral.
Then again, studying evolution and science makes me wonder. How can there be a god? Why should there be one? Where? I hope that there is, I try to believe there’s SOMETHING… but there are so many doubts.
6. What’s your life philosophy or life motto? Why?
I’m not sure, really. It used to be “every little step you take takes you one step closer to your destination”… but in the context of a whole life that’s actually more depressing than motivational. I wish I could answer this question, but my mind-set changes frequently and drastically. It’s difficult to have a particular motto or philosophy with nothing solid within yourself to attach it to…
7. What do you think your purpose in life is, if any? Why?
Um... TW- please don’t read if depressed/ suicidal. This probably won’t help.
This is something I’ve been wondering about a lot recently. I really don’t know. There doesn’t seem to be any point to life. That’s not to say I’m suicidal, but… why does anyone want to live, other than instinct to survive? From an evolutionary perspective, the only point of being alive is to reproduce. And the only point to that is so that your offspring can reproduce, so their offspring can reproduce… ad infinitum. Or at least ad until-the-sun-explodes-and-everyone-dies-anyway. And that seems so empty and cold. There is no real point to it.
So we give life a purpose. We decide on a thing to do with our lives, but whatever it is still just a human construct. Everything in human society is just constructs build on ancestors’ constructs, just created to block out the terror of death and the unknown and the fact that actually there is no reason for us to keep going. To pretend that we know what we’re doing and we’re not all just as confused and frightened as one another. And I guess it’s a good thing, because it allows us to enjoy life… but it’s also absolutely terrifying when everything suddenly turns transparent and you realise that there actually is no base to anything. We’re walking on the tops of ancient towers that don’t actually exist, and the only thing keeping us up there is the fact that most people don’t realise it. Or if they do, they don’t mention it, and so we all keep pretending it’s fine and normal and natural…
Well. This is cheerful. Most the time I don’t think about these things. I generally consider myself to be quite happy ;
But the purpose I’ve chosen for my life is to protect people and the environment as best I can, I suppose. Because that, at least, is something I can believe is solid and worthwhile.
8. What are your political view and why?
Most politicians don’t seem to understand that the point of their job is to do what’s best for the people of their country, not what’s best for themselves and their friends. Too much power has been placed in money and businesses, to the point that we allow them to rule us rather than peoples’ welfare and quality of life. Money has no conscience, businesses have no soul. They don’t care about the future of our species, because they’re just things. They’re not designed to. But so many politicians listen to them instead of the needs of people.
Therefore, I vote Green. I don’t agree with all of their policies, but they seem to be the only ones who aren’t corrupt and actually understand what politics is for.
9. What’s your favourite song?
No! Don’t make me answer this! It depends entirely on my mood! It used to be Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve, but now I honestly don’t know. I quite like Silver Lining by First Aid Kit at the moment… but I also love songs by Enya and Vienna Teng and John Spillane and Emilie Autumn and Helen Trevillion and Christy Moore and SO MANY OTHERS!!
10. If you could move to any country, which would it be?
IRELAND. Specifically, county Kerry. I’m half Irish and I utterly adore Ireland. Music, folklore, accents, the countryside… it’s all so beautiful. I feel at home when I visit my family over there. I feel a physical pull towards it when I haven’t visited for too long because I miss it so much. It’s a country so full of life.
10 Question for anyone who decides to answer them
1. What feature do you primarily use to identify people? Hair/ eyes/ face shape/ general build/ clothes/ etc.?
2. If you could live healthily for a thousand years, would you? And what would you do with all that time?
3. QUICK, NAME THE FIRST SONG THAT COMES TO MIND. Do you like it and why/ why not?
4. If you had to be transformed into something other than a human, would you choose to be an animal, a plant or a rock? Any particular type? (Oh dear, I’m running out of things to ask already…)
5. How do you prefer to listen to music?
6. Out of anything and everything that could be considered artistic in some way (pictures, literature, dance, music, etc), what is your favourite medium in which to view/experience art?
7. If you have a favourite artist, who is it and why?
8. Pick a superpower out of these two and explain why you chose it- the ability to see with your feet, or the ability to taste with your eyebrows? (Because the last three questions seemed dangerously close to normal and boring).
9. What is sentience, and are humans the only animals to have it?
10. With what fictional character would you most like to run screaming in terror from three angry rhinos, a warren of rabid Rhosgobel rabbits (the ones Radagast uses in The Hobbit films), and a hungry dragon? (No, you can’t set the dragon on the rhinos and rabbits. It’s a very fussy eater )
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